Devils and Angels

The fireworks at the Curve last night was spectacular. From our vantage point at my condo, I would say it was even more so then those during Merdeka. With a cuppa starbucks in our hands, me and Keng Yee ushered in 2008 in a very quiet way but a very private, cosy and comfortable way- courtesy of my condo poolside. We were at the Curve to have our dinner and for those lucky folks who weren’t there- simply put, it was SMOKY. OVERLY CROWDED. LOUD. A lil’ ridiculous to be even attempting to get there after 11pm.

Anyhow, there aren’t really any serious resolutions that I’ll like to make for 2008. I’ve since passed the stage of actually making resolutions. Resolutions are simply what it means- things that you stand firmly to make happen. What I have in mind is actually skewed towards Aspirations or at least Hopes. To recap, 2007 was a year of job hopping, family and love problems resolved, weight gain, hairstyle changes, cash flow problems, new friends, new colleagues and so much more. I would actually consider 2007 a more subdued year then 2006. So, for 2008, what I sincerely hope for is greater career advancements, flourishing family and love relationships, great health, traveling and further education possibilities

Happy New Year to each and everyone of you. May you find Happiness, Health and Prosperity in the year 2008!!

I got together with some of my oldest secondary school mates today. We got to talking bout’ the good ol’ times and was sharing bits and pieces of news bout other frens spread all over the globe. Those who are still studying.. Those who has just graduated n came back to Malaysia recently.. Those who are getting married secretly.. Those who are married secretly.. Those who gave birth secretly…

Funny to think we’ve come so far since the days of getting penalise for forgetting to wear our petticoats underneath our pinafore and the exchanges of shy and often embarassing glimpses of our many puppy crushes.. Most of us have graduated by now.. Earning hard cold ringgits and stretching those ringgits till the end of the month and yet still manage to fit in a few "luxury" purchases once in awhile.. Remember those days when you were asking permission from your parents to go for birthday parties?? Hoping you could stay out as late as possible and not be caught coming back with funky smells?? (ahem.. booze n ciggie smokes.. though not ENTIRELY your own inflicted emissions of cos’..) but then again… I personally never had to endure such an experience.. since I’m perpetually stuck with the "good girl" label.. which I indeed am.. I know I’m at the point where I’m rambling but the point is.. we’ve come very far from our humble and often bumbling beginnings..

I hail from Ipoh and from a family with much rules. I’m pretty proud of myself of how things has turned out for myself. I’m glad for all the mistakes I’ve made. I did misearably in my STPM and landed at UTAR. Thank God for that cos if I hadn’t, I wouldn’t have met all my wonderful housemates, roomie and frens at Sg Long. I guess I wouldn’t be able to speak and understand a single word of Mandarin too. Every month, I hafta fork out a really sizeable amount of money for my baby Neo.. Although I cud haf lived without a car, but thank God my dad made me buy it.. Cos’ at the end of the day, I have something to call MINE.. I fell for all the wrong guys who did nothing wonderful or gentlemanly to me.. Thank God that it all ended fast and painfully even… If it hadn’t, I wouldn’t have met my love…

We all see things differently. We all haf our own opinions of things. We could always make judgments bout’ how others live their lives and what decisions they made. But we’re not THEM. One man’s trash, another man’s gold. One door closes, another window opens.

Go for it guys.. Live your life and never be afraid to make the wrong decisions and moves. You never know.. It might probably be the sweetest and best mistake you’ve made yet..

To all the stupid dumbwits working in big corporations. This
blog is basically targeted at you guys. As I’m writing this, I’m practically
boiling. In my line of work, communication and interaction skills is crucial.
Most of the time, I’m on the phone doing my researches and looking out for
potential speakers or trainer leads. And this, my friends, is the freaking
worse part of the job. Yeah yeah, you might differ and counter with lame
excuses that this is a great opportunity to speak and expose yourself to so
many wonderful people on planet Earth. BUT unfortunately, that’s like less than
30% of the actual situation. I’ve spoken to so many stupid people for the past
3 months to last a life time. I would say Malaysian companies have to really
provide an organizational-wide training on THE PREVENTION OF STUPID
ANSWER-GIVING and the tag line should be like Avoiding Bad Press.

Cos

are actually doing CSR
without thinking that its good publicity for them???!?!?… What, you think
Malaysians are that noble to spend millions every year merely to feel good?
OMG. And you know what totally pisses me off? This stupid people are seriously
nobody in the corporate org chart, but they’re answering me in such a haughty
way I can totally slap their head off their shoulders. Goodness!! It’s
sometimes no surprise that some of this idiots actually remain at the bottom of
the org pyramid with the way they present and communicate.

Didn’t exactly check when was my last post but I know it’s been a really really while back. Homo-sapiens reading this, just wanna ask you guys a question before I start rambling bout my stuff since I last posted something. "WHAT IS THE REASON THAT YOU GUYS KEEP A BLOG AND WHY DO YOU READ OTHER PEOPLE’S BLOG?" Personally, I keep a blog cos’ its sorta therapeutic for me.. it’s an outlet of my so-so creativity- found it a bit lacking since finishing my Uni days (but not quite anymore.. i’ve another more stressing way to release my creativity adi.. will explain later). As for reading other people’s blog.. ermm.. I don’t really read that often other people’s blog.. If i do, its only to see the pics or what they’ve been up to the past weeks and months… and I am very honestly admitting (girl’s will always do what girls do) to check out the latest sob stories, gossips, hoo-haa or whatever you wanna term it. As I said, girls will always do what they can’t resist doing, you can share "gossips" and all but try not to bitch about it.. Saying stuff like, "told you so they can’t last".. "she’s so stupid, I wud have never done such a thing".. lack of a good English vocabulary.. Comment all you like but don’t belittle the choices that these people made and so willingly share it with others thru their blog. Respect that at least.

** Till then, hope to hear updates from all you guys soon. And I specifically mean calling.. not reading ur blogs… =) **

I was thinking for a really long time bout what to write this time around. Can’t really think of something meaningful and substantial to write actually. Within the time span of my previous piece and this one, probably most of you guys could have grown an arm and leg adi. Ooopss.. goodness.. what is this auntie juney writing.. blehh.. Anyway, since the lunar new year is around the corner, and what more with this year being the CHU NIEN, why don’t I write abit of my hopes and expectations for this year eh??!!?

Alrighteee… first off.. pretty pretty please my shining stars up there.. please shine me to a new job soon… PLEASEEE!! da water level is rising up to my neck adi with those idiot fat ass-es bringing in more buckets of water… urghhh.. i know i’ve got a heavy bottom too, but i can’t float as well as those buffooonsssss..

Okayokay.. before i get too far with the dramatics.. next in line.. cashflow management..just hope that my cashflows this year would be more balance.. more inputs.. and much better calculated-risks outflows..  I am oh so sure that most of you have that gnawing feeling in your stomach when you crave for something so desperately, and you work so very hard to earn that meagre salary.. and to see all those cash being drained away like water without even feeling it.. omg.. its a sad sad feeling people… (small prints.. what with my idiot company giving so lil’ increments..)

alrite alrite.. next is something which all girls crave for.. as i am not blessed with high metabolisme, i need to get abit leaner.. note the word LEAN.. not thin.. thin people out there.. DON’T and i repeat DON’T ever approach me and say how fat you are.. cos’ if you ever cross my path and tagging yourself fat when you are indeed pencil-thin, i will whack da hell out of you.. verbally i mean.. shame on you.. and that is why i prefer using the word lean.. just to be a lil’ healthier.. give my face a lil’ more glow.. my eyes a lil’ more sparklier.. hahah.. i just thought of something else… SEX can do that to da body tooo.. hmmmm… a much more appreciative alternative than exercise.. hmmm.. hahahhaha…

and last but not lease… something for me and baby.. one word.. PROXIMITY… for all the money and beauty that i might be able to save and obtain this year, my top most priority-wish would be for us.. praying hard that all well will end well..

and of course how could i end without sending my early-wish to all my friends, family, and love ones.. HAPPY HAPPY CHU NIEN!!

muackssssssss~~~~~~

it seems like erytime i post sting here, d most recent post wud haf lapsed one mth ago.. interesting eh?? and guess wat, erytime i do post sting n update u guys bout my latest happenings, it wud always haf one way or another be related to my car.. and yes guys… yet again.. something DID happen.. my car was scratched big time TWICE by sum idiots.. d scratch runs from d front lights till d back lights on d left.. F**CK!!.. at first, i totally lost it.. was soooo furious.. felt like wringing any necks tat come my way.. gave teddy such a bad time last wk.. flunging all kinds of insults and upsets at him for sting he didn’t do.. seriously felt sori, but i was soo veryy loosing it.. coupled wit me having my "monthly" symptoms… sori baby.. but thank God it was oni for 24hrs.. had to.. went for my company’s teambuilding at PD’s Legend Water Chalet d following morn.. slept at 1am.. wokeup at 4am.. jz to do d darn flag for my team..

I tell you guys.. d room and view is worth d rm500 per person.. very much catered for lovebirds looking for a hideaway for d wkend.. sooo romantic… especially d nite view with all d side lamps illuminating.. sighhhh.. and there’s a big big hole on d floor of d bedroom n bathroom, covered with a transparent glass… water jz underneath.. i may probably sound a lil’ "ulu" writing all tis… but heck.. its MY first at least.. =) all lovebirds out there, recommend u to go there.. a big splurge.. but a worthy one..

alrite.. talking bout my teambuilding prog… interesting one.. was oni 2days 1nite.. had fun.. learnt alot bout my colleagues.. d good n most importantly d bad.. its more bout trying to promote better relationship.. so there’s tis activity where u write anonymously (except for those gung-ho individuals who ain’t worried n come out straight by writing their names) all d negative things they find in all d participants, pre-prepared red cards and just dunk it in to their respective envelopes.. there’s oso a blue version where u do d opposite.. instead of negative comments, u gif positive ones..

To sum up mine, d cards mostly read tat i’m rude and too soft spoken… wat irony.. and i admit to both.. cos i’m showing two separate sides of me to diff ppl in d company.. haf to.. no choice.. but i knw it ain’t too wise a thing to do.. need to be a better "actress".. working on it.. gif me time.. =) but despite all d politics, i do feel blessed.. i’m gaining alot of interpersonal skills working at this comp.. during d "blue card" session, a colleague told me sting tat reli stuck to me.. tat i shud take my job nw as a good stepping stone to sting better in d future.. tat he’s been in d biz long enuf, exposed to many types of ppl enuf to knw tat i got wat it takes.. and i was seriously motivated by wat he said.. yea, there’s tis probability he’s sucking up2me.. but sumhow, he seemed very sincere.. most of d positive comments i got was tat i’m organised, efficient.. results-oriented, fast learner… gosh.. felt like floating adi hearing all tis.. haha.. anyway, wateva said n done.. time will tell n prove to all n myself hw true is all tis n hw far it’ll take me..

alrite alrite.. i’m writing a weeee bit too long (sendiri affirm sendiri.. wooo hooo), jz wanna end here by wishing my "mummy" n "chuheong" a very happy burfday 2mlo.. luv u guys loads.. muakkkksssss…

Firstly, let me apologise to those who found my previous blog "F**k it" a lil’ too strong to their taste.. =P But let me make it clear tat I ain’t apologising for writing it… cos’ tats wat blogs are for.. anyway, I’ve already deleted it. Wasn’t suppose to be displayed even, cos’ I saved it as a draft.. a tech-glitch somewhere.. wanted2write to release a lil’ of the pent-up frustration. It isn’t half as bad as what I wrote in tat blog.. things always seem a lil’ out of hand and a lil’ beyond wat it is wen ur "halfway being roasted in d fire pit"… anyway. to all those frens who msg-ed me out of concern… hey, no worries.. i am the one and only JUNE KONG.. blehhhblehhhh.. what the heck does tat actually mean even?? to be who i am.. still wondering.. everybody has their own opinions of who i am.. gladly invite all you folks to give me a piece of ur mind bout me.. and hey, no worries.. jz "taroh bagus bagus" k.. as longs its done sincerely and truthfully..

Do you guys sometimes wonder how many people’s "cloth" have you stepped on? Hmmm.. interesting thought.. Oh, that reminds me of an incident this morn. Was driving to work with my sis-in-law and this "org garang" at the back of my car was giving me "beautiful hand signals" and mouthing "beautiful language" at me. I was like wondering what did I do wrong now??!?! Dengzzz… Is it just me or is it the people around me need to drink a little more "herbal tea" to get rid of the excess "heat".. Kinda gets to me that early in the morn, there’s people "caci-ing" me adi.. Shame on your stupid bad mouth.. I think your mom probably brought you up better than to be such an idiot stupid bad mouthing donkey.. Don’t think even the best DETTOL can even begin to break down the layers of germs in your mouth. Okay.. sorry sorry.. I’m getting a lil’ too worked up.. woooohhoooo.. =P

Anyway, Ipoh Folks.. your home gurl here is heading back home this Friday afternoon.. gonna be heading back wit Miss Koh. Hopefully, taking the halfday off is not gonna be as crazy as driving back after work or on Saturday.

Lastly, but not the least.. to my TeddyBear..a big fuzzy warm huggieshuggies to you on your coming birthday.. Be good.. be obedient.. but most of all.. be happy and healthy always.. muackssss..

Finally, I’ve da time to post something new. The "government official" of my office is on leave today, and therefore I’ve all the time in the world today to "illegally" surf the internet. And no, I don’t mean the literal meaning of "illegal", jz tat I’ve been keeping mental reminders of so many things to write in my next post but i’ve been delaying it over and over again cos’ there’s jz been too little free time this past 2 weeks.. wat more with "somebody" shadowing my back.. but before u start thinking bad thoughts of me, i am efficient n effective.. eheheheh..but i do miss writing alot.. a whole lot.. casualty of no owning ur own internet connection at home..

Now tat I actually do haf da leisurely means to write and pour out all my laments and ravings bout all tat is JUNE…. I DON"T FEEL LIKE IT ANYMORE!! sighhh.. guess tats called "moment lost".. but anyway, I’ve been doin alrite.. my mood swings has been goin way off d "mood-swing-scale".. no idea whether its jz my monthly ritual’s hormone’s doing or something else.. but before u start making a mental note not to come "razzle my feathers" any time soon, let me clarify that ur spared.. won’t burst my bubbles at ya so easily geh.. i hope.. but sorry k teddy.. missing you is seriously a big agony for me.. hope u’ll understand.. i’m shooting canon balls at ya nearly eryday.. u’ve d patience of an angel ( a teddy bear with wings.. =P ).. hope ur armor is strong enough to withstand it.. if not, let me knw.. i’ll sew a better cannon-proof one for u.. blehhh.. =P

d workplace isn’t any much better as well.. lotsa demands.. lotsa expectations.. lotsa last minutes… lotsa blaming being thrown ard.. wtf… gonna dread d next quarter-end…. grrrrrrrrrrrr~~~~ but i knw my boss and his "konco" nw knws tat i can’t be bullied..  a small consolation fr all d hisses, huffs n puffs of d last few weeks..

anyway, updates on my driving?? ermm.. went back to iph last wkend..drove bk wit teddy.. but came back down alone.. darn it.. was tagging my bro’s car n my bro was rushing me all d way bk down.. i was alredi speeding 130kpmh (pls bear in mind i’m a far cry from being an experience driver rite nw..) bloody hell.. was sooo sien driving alone.. but one very good thing was tat my car looks better nw.. not as "sick n naked" looking.. got d new wheelcaps over at Brother’s  n my dad had ppl stick d side protector rubbers all d way from d front tyres to d back for boths sides.. so, tat kinda covered up d most obvious part where abit of d paint came off.. doesn’t look as  pathetic.. "big big sigh of relief".. i honestly pray tat i dun get into any other accidents any time soon.. heartbreaking.. n wallet-breaking..

alrite.. being mooncake festival n all.. jz wanna wish eryone near n far from me.. HAPPY LANTERN FESTIVAL.. ooohh.. looking forward2seeing my goldfish lantern.. but of all d lanterns i’ve gotten so far.. d dragon was by far d best.. d head wiggling wiggling.. soo stupid looking but so adorable.. =) there’s j tis big big sense of wonderment seeing lanterns all litted up.. calming effect.. but den again noting beats tis feeling more den seeing d xmas tree all aglow in the dark.. lovely~~~

for all those folks still patiently reading tis blog, bravo to u.. but on a more important note, thanks for caring or maybe "8" enuf to read on.. hahaahha.. take care u guys.. *HUGSSSS*

its been a while since i last posted sumting here.. as a matter of fact, since i left iph.. i can’t actually write much nw to update u guys bout eryting mainly cos’ i dun haf connection at d place i’m staying.. i’m heading bk to iph for d wkend n honestly speaking, i wud rather stay in kl to deal wit sumting more important.. repair my car.. i banged up my car on wednesday evening.. my 2 left wheel caps came off.. i cud oni retrieved one bk as d other was picked up by sum idiot strangers.. my front tyre was punchured as d rim was badly messed up by d impact.. d back tyre’s rim is oso crooked adi.. d front’s is much worse n i’ve a feeling is not gonna b fixable.. i haven’t had d opp to get it fixed yet cos’ of all days, i had to go banged it up on d eve  of a national holiday..  imagine my frustration.. n its d second accident in 2wks.. d first was a bit more minor.. my car, as wat my brothers describe it.. is no more a "virgin".. it has its first scratches last monday.. on my way back from returning my convo robe.. rushing.. parking.. n on both occasions, i shud haf taken things slow.. shud haf.. but i wud like 2 thank d 2 passerbys who stopped2help me replace the tire.. truly honestly.. reli feeling d pinch of being a so-called working adult.. eryting i do nw seems to carry more weight.. its seems like d mistake i make nw is gonna make a big ripple effect on eryting n eryone else.. n my piggy bank is reli gonna go on a "big diet" tis mth.. i’ve always hated feeling tat i’m being a burden.. n for d past2mths.. i’ve felt it oh so many times.. to feel it is one thing, but to actually hear dat i’m an "inconvenience", omg.. u’ve no idea d feeling.. d disappointment n frustration welling inside me.. not of dat person, but of myself.. i hate imperfections n i can’t take being an imperfect person.. stupid as it sounds, but i bet tat sum of u feels it too.. to be useless.. defenseless.. hopelessness.. someone dear2me told me tat i’m not useless n its juz tat i lack d exposure n tat i’m d sort of person tat hafta learn things d hard way.. n i knw its true.. n despite d heartache i’m feeling nw, i sorta knw tat i’ve grown more in tis 2mths den i had for d past 23 yrs.. grateful for at least tat.. handling so many things on my onw n truly thankful for u, teddy.. without u, d 2 mths wud reli b even more difficult.. i’m a big klutz.. i knw tat.. thanks for making sure i’m a lesser klutz.. =)

i’ll try my best to update d rest of u guys d best tat i can.. take care all of u~~~

ps… happy belated convo to all my housemates, coursemates, uni mates..

After reading all d comments left by u guys for my previous post.. I think maybe i shud clear up a few facts.. All the stressful stuff tat i’m goin thru can be traced back to one person.. my dad.. and its not as simple as u guys think.. its very much more difficult n painful.. so much so, d situation has gone beyond my own control adi.. and d oni thing i can do nw, is tat i hope my father wil come to realise and view things d same way as i do.. which is near impossible.. u knw wat guys.. i’m fearing so much for d future rite nw.. things r extremely strained between me n my dad rite nw.. literally cliff-hanger.. if i do one wrong move or decision at tis point… i’m seriously gone… i can’t divulge much of d details here.. but, my mind is seriously messed up rite nw.. i’m being pulled at all sides.. i feel seriously weighed down n i knw a relief wil not come soon.. all i hope n ask of u guys, is to pray for me n tat noting of d worse wil come to me n my family.. i jz hope tat by being away fr iph n starting wit my job next wk is gonna reduce a lil’ of d tension.. but no matter hw far i run away, i think wateva transpired between me n my dad for d past one week has done its damage.. i’m sorry i disappointed him so much.. i love my dad wit all my heart.. i wish i cud tell all tis to him.. but i knw its pointless.. i’ve given up hope tat he’ll understand.. pray tat d next few mths, he can see things differently n tat a miracle can happen..